Pressing Pause: A Kinda, Sorta Hiatus

Monday, August 23, 2021 1 comment


I've been thinking a lot lately.

You already know what this is about based solely on the title of this post, but I'm going to say it straight up: I'm pressing pause on writing and publishing for the time being.

There are a number of reasons why I've decided to do this, which is the purpose of this post. I want to explain what's going on and what has led me to this conclusion.

First of all, I'm dealing with some medical issues. As you may remember me mentioning before, I had surgery in December to remove an ovarian cyst. Unfortunately for me, that wasn't the end of it. The surgeon discovered some potential issues from the lab work done on the cyst and recommended me getting ultrasounds twice a year to monitor my ovary. I went in June to have the ultrasound done and a new cyst was found. The doctor recommended surgery to remove the cyst and ovary.

When I went for my surgical consult (over a month after the ultrasound, my doctor has been booked this summer), she felt for the cyst but was unable to find it. She had me get a second ultrasound at the end of the week to verify if the cyst had gone away. And guess what? Turns out the cyst did either shrink or disappear! Talk about breathing a sigh of relief!

While I'm not going to need surgery, the stress and anxiety of needing a second surgery less than a year out from the first one really threw me. I spent the last two months anticipating it, had already told friends and family, preparing mentally and figuring out financially how we're going to pay for another procedure while we're still paying off the first... Let's just say it hasn't been fun. Plus, even though I'm not having surgery in the near future, my doctor will likely need me to come in again for ultrasounds periodically to make sure everything is okay. Also, this (unfortunately) isn't my only medical issue, but it's the one that is of main concern at the moment.

As I mentioned in the last paragraph, we're still currently paying off the first surgery (and the ER visit that led to surgery). I've been trying to work extra hard with the online businesses I run (an author services business as well as the eBay business I co-own with my husband) so that we can get those bills paid down. Most of my time has been consumed with that along with other daily responsibilities and chores.

When it comes to actual writing, ever since my last new release (last year in September), I've struggled to settle on which story I want to write next. I bounced from story idea to story idea, getting a few hundred or thousand words in before I hit a roadblock or lacked the motivation to continue it due to plot holes or not feeling the storyline. I continued to push through it and try again (and again and again), but kept reaching a dead end. The inspiration was there briefly, but then it would go away.

I thought I knew what I wanted to write and publish next, but it kept changing every couple of weeks or every month. The latest one (a Christmas novella) was the tipping point. I loved the idea and I honestly feel that I could write and publish it this year. However, now that I'm dealing with these medical issues, I already know that setting a deadline this year isn't going to be feasible. Given how little I tend to write anymore, there's just no way I could write, revise, edit, and publish a book before the end of the year.

I'm not exactly sure why I've had so much difficulty with writing this last year, but I will say that I haven't been in the best headspace. Between medical issues and dealing with other pressures and stresses, focusing hasn't been my strong suit. Every day I would sit at the computer and tell myself that once I finish my work for the day, I'll write. Unless I had a goal that I announced online (like during Camp NaNo in April), I wouldn't put forth the effort to write on a regular basis.

There's a false expectation that to be a writer you must be writing all the time. While I don't believe writers should have to write every day or every other day, I do believe that getting out of the habit makes it hard to get back into the habit again. I tend to push myself or take on more than I can handle (that's in general, not just writing), which can lead me to potential burnout. I don't think I've reached burnout, but I've reached something that isn't allowing me to progress with my writing, be it writer's block or something else.

What I know I have reached is a point where I simply need to take a step back and reevaluate. Like, reevaluate everything. I need to ask myself the tough questions: about what I want to do with my time, about what I want to write, where I want to see myself in a year, in two years, in five years, in ten years. Just basically give myself breathing room to consider all of my options and to narrow down the path I would like to take, not only in my author career but with my life.

It's time to press pause, to contemplate everything, and then unpause when I'm ready.

I have no idea how much time this will take, but it's my hope to return to some sort of normalcy in the new year. Giving myself this reprieve will allow me to regroup mentally, emotionally, spiritually, and physically. I can self-reflect without the stress of needing to do a thousand and one things to get caught up again.

One thing is for sure: I'll never stop writing. I may have to take a break from it, but I can't not write. The stories are always swirling in my head and I'm always coming up with new ideas. That'll never change.

I don't like pressing pause, especially on things that I love, but sometimes you have to do what's best for you even if it's frustrating or upsetting. And it genuinely is both of those things to me. There have been multiple points where I have been unable to write or publish, especially consistently. It took me three years (between 2016 and 2019) to publish something new. And it feels like I'm in that same moment, where everything is at a standstill and I can't be where I want to be right now.

But that's okay, and I need to learn to be okay with it, to be okay with me being in this place and needing a moment to figure it out.

So, that's what's going on with me at this point and time. In the meantime, I hope that I will continue to see you because I don't plan on disappearing entirely. I'll be around on social media and likely occasionally on this blog. You'll also see me at the end of this year discussing how 2021 has gone and at the beginning of next year making plans for 2022. And once I figure everything out, I'll be here, telling you all about it.

Until then... xoxo,



Lilly Avalon Monthly Writing Update #15 for July 2021

Wednesday, August 4, 2021 No comments

Every month I share an update about what I'm writing in my Monthly Writing Update!
Click here to read June's update. Keep reading to find out the latest for the month of July.

My goal for July: To write more regularly


Did I meet my goal?

I've gotten better, that's for sure! Have I written a lot? That all depends on what your definition of "a lot" is. Personally, I feel like I wrote a lot given the fact that I haven't been writing much these last few months. I managed to get 1200 words in, which isn't much in the grand scheme of things, but it's a lot given my motivation has been lacking and I've been dealing with a lot of unexpected issues in real life.

August Goals

I don't have any specific goals yet again, but I do want to get into a routine. My Facebook memories reminded me recently of how back in 2015 I was hitting 1000 words a day in my WIP (which was Can't Stay Away). While I know I can't hit 1000 words a day every day for several days in a row now, I know that if I put my mind to it I can get a routine in place where I'm writing every day, even if it's for 10-15 minutes.

I've set aside My Roommate's Ex for the time being (will return to it at a later date) and I've picked up a Christmas novella I've been wanting to write for a long time. This one has me giddy because it's a short, sweet, steamy, and silly friends-to-lovers romance.

While I would love to get this one written and published for this upcoming holiday season, it's all going to depend on how things go when it comes to some medical issues I'm having. Remember that ovarian cyst I had removed last December? Well, it grew back. It isn't as big (only 2 cm instead of 10 cm), but it will need to be taken care of, as well as removing the ovary that seems to be the issue. I'm going to be seeing my doctor next week, so I should have a better idea of how things will be from now until the end of the year after speaking with her. Please wish me luck!


Love you all lots! Take care, everybody!

Lilly Avalon Monthly Writing Update #14 for June 2021

Tuesday, July 6, 2021 No comments

Every month I share an update about what I'm writing in my Monthly Writing Update!
Click here to read May's update. Keep reading to find out the latest for the month of June.

My goal for June: Finish writing and revising bonus scenes for The Risqué Series Boxset and get back to writing My Roommate's Ex.

Did I meet my goal?

Yes on the first! I actually managed to finish the bonus scenes earlier than expected and my editor read over it and sent back notes within days. In the end, I decided to publish it on June 30th instead of early July, so things worked out nicely.

As far as returning to writing My Roommate's Ex, I haven't done that. I pulled up the doc and looked over the last chapter, but I just couldn't find it in me to continue the story at this time. Since I'm over 20k into it, I really wanted to continue to write it so that I can aim to publish the book next year.

July Goals

When it comes to planning for July, the details are still up in the air. I would like to get back to writing regularly again, but what I'm writing may not be what I anticipate. Also, I am currently dealing with some more medical issues which might put a damper on what I'm able to accomplish in the next couple of months. However, given those issues, I would like to try my best to get ahead if possible. Writing something will be better than writing nothing, right? Time will tell how much I'm able to accomplish, but regardless of the total, I'll still be proud of it.


Love you all lots! Take care, everybody!

The Risqué Series Boxset Release Day!

Wednesday, June 30, 2021 No comments

It's release day for The Risqué Series Boxset!


Three men. Three unconventional professions. Three romances. The Risqué Series boxset consists of three steamy novellas.

Desiring the Dancer

Carlie Coleman is not looking forward to her stepsister’s bachelorette party. It was supposed to be a simple affair with a small group of Valerie’s closest friends at their parents’ beach house. Instead, the guests have tripled, there’s a fancy caterer, and at some point there will be strippers. It’s going to be a disaster… until she meets the cute waiter.

Enticing the Escort

Goldie Rivers needs a date… and fast. She isn’t showing up to another wedding by herself. The incessant questions about why she’s still single, not to mention the men who won’t leave her alone when they find that out. What’s a girl to do? Hire an escort, of course.

Seducing the Star

Maggie Bloom doesn’t know why she’s at this party. Recently dumped by her serious boyfriend, she would much rather be ringing in the new year at home in her pajamas. If she were there, she wouldn’t have to worry about the midnight kiss. Now she has to figure out what to do and time is running out. Enter Phoenix Westbrook. He’s sexy, he’s nice… and he’s a porn star?

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This boxset includes three alternate POV scenes from the perspective of each of the men.

Preorder on Amazon | B&N | KoboApple | Smashwords
| Add to your Goodreads shelf |




Happy reading!

The Risqué Series Boxset Cover Reveal!

Friday, June 18, 2021 No comments

Hello lovelies!

I'm super excited to share the cover for The Risqué Series Boxset today. This series was so much fun to write, and I still want to write more unconventional profession novellas for this series someday. But for now, here's the cover reveal.

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Three men. Three unconventional professions. Three romances. The Risqué Series boxset consists of three steamy novellas.

Desiring the Dancer

Carlie Coleman is not looking forward to her stepsister’s bachelorette party. It was supposed to be a simple affair with a small group of Valerie’s closest friends at their parents’ beach house. Instead, the guests have tripled, there’s a fancy caterer, and at some point there will be strippers. It’s going to be a disaster… until she meets the cute waiter.

Enticing the Escort

Goldie Rivers needs a date… and fast. She isn’t showing up to another wedding by herself. The incessant questions about why she’s still single, not to mention the men who won’t leave her alone when they find that out. What’s a girl to do? Hire an escort, of course.

Seducing the Star

Maggie Bloom doesn’t know why she’s at this party. Recently dumped by her serious boyfriend, she would much rather be ringing in the new year at home in her pajamas. If she were there, she wouldn’t have to worry about the midnight kiss. Now she has to figure out what to do and time is running out. Enter Phoenix Westbrook. He’s sexy, he’s nice… and he’s a porn star?

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This boxset includes three alternate POV scenes from the perspective of each of the men.

Preorder on Amazon | B&NKobo  | Apple | Smashwords
| Add to your Goodreads shelf |


What do you think of the cover? Let me know in the comments!